I am one but who am I?

Active Member Joined: 08 Mar 2005 Posts: 52

Lying in my bed
Images running in my head.
Can't seem to make them stop.
They remind me a little of you.
They won't let the issue drop.

Why don't you let me be?
Step back and let me breathe!
Leave me to wallow in my shame.
If you had to put up with you everyday,
You would do the f***ng same!

Why can't you understand?
I try to do the best I can
I'm sorry I'm not you
I can only be me that's all I am
Forgive me That's all I can do.

I can't live up to your expectations
Why don't you pay attention?
I feel as if I'm filled with torment.
Can't fight it any longer,
Why don't you listen for a moment?!

I hate you
I really do
You always push my limit
You bring me so much pain Mother
I can't be perfect, Don't you get it?!

Maybe a bullet through my head
One quick pull and I'll be dead
Maybe then you will understand
That you are you and I am me
Maybe then this bullshyt will end.........

Posted: Tue Sep 20, 2005 9:44 pm

this is so tragic!!!! how a parent can expect their child to be perfect after having been a child themselves is beyond me!!!

i love the way you write it out.....it speaks volumes....

Posted: Tue Aug 29, 2006 1:41 pm

Wow, great!
I can understand some of what you write..
My parents never payed attention to me either.
Sucks... But what do you do about it.
Great poem!

Alexander